Living; some describe it as making money, others describe it as total solitude. I’ve found that living is merely finding ones self and embracing it. You see, how can one fully live if one does not understand the vessel that they are occupying. Like the great quote says, “Our body is a temple, worship it.” The key to life lies within each and every soul and it’s up to you to find it. We are born with a lock, a sort of barrier to what we are really capable of becoming and doing. Our creator, the master designer, wrote in this design, that somewhere no matter how difficult, dark, or un-equal the situation may be, there is always a key to the solution. Obstacles and mazes are set forth upon us not to weaken us or to fill us with doubt, but to strengthen ones inner being and guide one’s self to becoming the person they have always wanted. Nothing says experience like mistakes and nothing says mistakes like bad judgment. We all have it we all do it we must learn to live love laugh and move on, may seem easier said than done, but that’s the beauty in life, what’s said one way can be easily turned around. See, the creator gave us one tool that nobody I mean no other living or dead, or any creature has ever been able to have or grasp, and that’s free will. Free will makes us love, hate, kill, destroy, build, conquer, reunite, it defines the human race, and for most of us, it is nothing more than a breath of air. Without free will, without the ability to think on our own to willfully and rightfully want to make decisions based on our OWN judgment, we would be slaves to our own hell. Most people wonder why they are stressing or why everything is falling apart, well that is how you perceive it. Yes it may appear to be a downward spiral but in light of the situation it could be a spiral of rocks to build a mountain which you might stand on top of; all depending how you move to evade the rocks. See, coming from an background where your life is a maze and at every corner is something new to throw you off and make you lose track, you begin to understand that no matter how bad the maze gets, there’s always an out, and after each hurdle it becomes that much easier to get over the next one. Instead of getting tired I push on, instead of getting weary I seek strength, instead of giving up and loosing hope I push on and give it all I got. That’s how I live my life, day by day, giving everything all I got because if you don’t what’s the purpose of giving it at all.
Nobody gives any more. Everyone is just looking to get a piece of the pie, that’s what it is all about, right? Wrong. You can live your life in a shadow all you want, thinking you know exactly who you are, what you want, how you’re going to get it, but until you step back and look at yourself from the outside, you won’t see what’s comin. We all live our life day by day taking every little thing for granted, every breathe every step every blink for granted when it could all be taken away at an instant, but of course we don’t think about these things until they are about to happen. Do you know why that is? Because we are so used to having everything, that the thought of nothing would consume us. Now people always think that I come from a background where everything was handed to me and blah blah but let me just say this; I earned everything that I got and I got everything that I want. People complain and bitch and moan about petty stuff in life while the people who struggle out here remain silent, smiling on the outside and dying on the inside. Life moves by slow for them, standing by, watching as the ones around them zoom across the world thinking they are enjoying every second of life, when in reality they are just passing it by. To understand who you really are you must understand the basics, life. I’m not saying you have to be a nature junkie or tree hugger but don’t forget who gives us life..nature. without trees without nature without wind, water, fire; where would we be, pounding away at rocks like idiots for another 2000 years. Take in every piece of beautiful scenery you can, snap all the sunsets you want; smell the grass swim in the water because one day it will all be gone and we will regret it and miss it and write stories about it like we do everything else we let slip away from us because of greed, stupidity, and free will.
Most of the things that make us happy we aren’t allowed to do, because if we were allowed to do everything that we wanted that would make us happy, than I wouldn’t be writing this and there wouldn’t be mass murders suicides killings hate tribes etc, or maybe there would, because we are all secret serial killers. You tell me. See, that’s the problem, the creator really messed up giving us free will because what the creator didn’t realize is that upon receiving free will we will make judgment of not only each other but of him. Sooner or later we all realize we can do what we want and people may say why did you do that now look at ya, or you could have been doing this now your just doin that, why? Most will either answer because I want to or because I’m happy. After a while you just stop letting stuff stand in your way and you become accustom to the bullshit. Either you becoming it or you overcoming it; the choice is yours.
Now some may agree when I say the word fate and some would disagree, well no matter what you think; the path is written, but you have all the tools necessary to re-write, edit, and do with your path as you choose; it’s just an small outline of who you could become. Some people are just born with bad roles, there’s no possible way to ever diminish evil because then what would the heroes have to do? Eventually someone would turn just because they are bored. No, we may not be able to stop evil, but we can trap it, we can harness it, we can manipulate it, use it how we want. Some use it to their benefit, some don’t play with it and some become it. But either way, it’s there for us to use just as good is. The line to balance both is spider wire thin and most can’t balance successfully. Either they are evil, good, or don’t have any clue who they are yet, usually one major moment in one’s life defines each and every one of us. They call it the rising point; the make or break it part. Now you may say you’ve been there it can’t get any worse but never say never because it can, it will, and it has. But just as it can get worse so can it get better, just as one of those scientists’ laws states; for every reaction there is an equal and positive or negative reaction. It’s true, try it..shoot a wasp nest because your bored or shoot a wasp nest to save your dog, either way the reaction will be equal on both amounts, you know why? Because that’s just how it is. No, life is not a bitch, shes very fair, if she wanted, she could make it 0 degrees every day and make us live on ice and starve to death, but no, she lets us thrive and chop her into pieces while we piss on her land blowing smoke into the sky. But just like she is, we are; no matter how much you throw at us we know we can take it, we can rebuild and we know Karma; we all know that word!, will kick you on your teeth. There’s honestly never been an instance where I’ve never seen Karma work either indirectly or super duper directly. It’s a boomerang effect, why do you think the world is shaped like a circle; because we can’t ever escape from anything, we must face whatever it is we think we can run from because otherwise we will forever go in circles.
Pain and emotion and all those little stressors in between; I love when I hear someone say how hard it is to quit smoking or for them to do this and that, you know why? Because if you can start up anything in an instant, you can just as easily quit. That’s what people don’t realize about our brain it’s so damn powerful I mean you have the willpower to stop smoking those five packs a day on a dime with limited side effects just because YOU want to. Remember earlier talking about controlling the vessel that we are in and harnessing it, well your brain is a main part and once you can learn to manipulate that, and then the possibilities are endless. I hear folks always say how they can’t change they’ve tried etc., and it boggles me because how can one simply say they can’t? It’s all within if you want to do something then you will do it, no matter what. Now pain is a different story, it would be wonderful if we could all manage to control and harness our pain, but it’s nearly impossible. It’s kind of like us in a sense, has a mind of its own, if it wants to fuck you it will fuck you if it wants to remain passive for years and finally come rampart then it will, but it does not matter what you do or how you try to change things up (unless it’s some crazy disease that really does have a cure but even then), pain will remain. Without pain we could not feel and without feeling we could not exist. Although pain is a pain it helps us to get stronger and better and although it may take some lives of loved ones or drive others to suicide, it gives the ones who haven’t done that to think twice, give life a shot, try to live that extra day because you never know maybe one day, you will be saved from a hellish life or pain and suffering, just got to have hope.
Everyone is always trying to find a way to be found, heard, listened to; we all just want to belong, right? That’s wrong, because if you try to fit in you will always be pushed out, if you just be yourself and do what YOU feel is impressionable and loud, then do it. Don’t be afraid of passing the boundaries of what you think you can do and what you think you can’t do. There is no such thing as impossible, only to those who quit. Don’t ever back out of something you once said you were going to do with passion, if you are just going to give up, then why do it? Completion is one of the keys to life as everything that has a start must have an end, and if you continue to quit and restart, you will always reach where you have always been. And yes, of course you will have a mountain of shit always piling upon you the second you start up this challenge, but that’s the point because after all the shit there is a mound full of gold waiting to be captured. Good judgment comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment. Don’t be afraid to take a leap, take a chance, and do something different, be someone different, like they always say, tomorrow is another day!
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